"And no, even the scientist say its impossible to get better."
That was gold. Then you posted this... like you're not even trying anymore:
"If you want to be good, be me. If you have seen something incredible, its me."
Yawn.
Edit: Adding this because I hate it when people post without actually contributing to the thread's actual topic. People always say, "Ask the players who beat you why you lost." That's okay... But as a teacher in real life, I've learned that people always learn (and remember) better when they realize something for themselves. So the first step after a loss is to go back and review the history and think about what you could have done differently. If you don't see any way that you could have won, THEN ask the other player.