The post of my friend who bit the dirt and everyone joking about it?
My own BIFF (that's "best imaginary friend forever"! we came up with that after watching Back To The Future) died when I was 9. All my other imaginary friends actually weren't friends but assholes; at a time when I would have needed them the most, they just weren't there for me anymore. Bastards (his name was Werner btw). So I've been there. I know how you feel. It'll pass. Maybe go buy another membership?